星期日伤心晚餐

我现在的心情很糟。
刚刚跟家人晚餐，他们说了很多东西。
我知道那些东西正如他们所说的，想找机会跟我说很久了，但，没机会。
刚刚终于说了，还一堆。
我是真的真的真的明白，了解他们的担心。
不要说什么，等你做了妈妈你就知道。
如果说，我不会尊敬他们，那，现在我应该学着尊敬，那就是服从他们要的。
我想，他们说的，我真的要跟着做了。
那是给父母的一点尊严和尊敬。
我也很记得当兵的时候，教会给我们看的说孝短片
它说，孝，第一就是要做到让父母安心。
我一直都很记得这句。


关于是什么事，真的不用多说。
现在在我脑海里，真的有很多想法。
想想自己清白吗
值得吗


答案其实很简单。
第一，不是偷，不是抢，没有出卖自己。所以是心安理得。
第二，我想现在想的大都是因为不舍的放弃。


总之，做人儿女的有时真的不能只为自己想，也要为父母想。
我要做到这点就因该要听他们的。虽然他们很烦。我也会因此而失去一些东西。
没办法，做人就是难。要忙赚钱，还要担心治安和末日。


如果有一天，父母能让我飞，几好。
我真的很久没去旅行了，小时候我的旅行运好像比现在好100倍。
去过的泰国，美国，上海，广州，杭州，苏州，台湾的记忆都还在脑里。
因为很珍惜。
我也没真真跟他一起去过旅行，我很想，但，我知道要等到我结婚后。


我要说服自己是幸福的。
只是有时开心不起来。

my recent days

Seems like this blog gonna be closing real soon.
i do not hope so, but im really got no motivation on here.
Is holidayss, i got my time, i turned on my PPS every 11pm-4am but reluctant to sign in blog and have my write....
it turned me so lazy, no direction, and no doubt my writing skill got no improvement at all since i used chinese typing in almost all the previous post.



Tuesday, his off and he brought me to JoGoYa.
i never been there, so was the first time after so long.
There is a disadvantage or we can say goodness of owning a restaurant, he seems like didnt found any special on the foods because all the things can be eaten in his shop. SWT.
So wasted for him to go ><


Anyhow, im appreciate the lunch so much
and
thanks for the flower Y (stolen from starhill)

The lamb on his hand is only for VIP jogoya, but the VIP user didnt want to eat it and kindly sharing with us. Im not eating lamb, and he is 80% full BUT he still tried his best to finished it. So , in the end his tummy was round as a balloon. Y





Supposingly a happily day with him on tuesday,
but
i spoiled it
at the same time i lost my bracelet in IDK where
summore, my period is coming so my mood is swing swing swing untill i got my wire in the brain cracked a.g.a.i.n

was not a happy ending and im regretted.
sorry .