Congrats...

#Thanks GOD#

i had passed all the 4 subjects....another one not yet come out

Boh~ boh~boh~boh~

My heart nearly stopped just now...!!!

oh my *writing*.....oh my *psychology*....

wondering Why i could passed Both of the subject.

this would be the first good news in 2009, a good begining....Horray !

Thanks for my self-effort also ^^

2009

5...4...3...2...1...

Happy New Year ! ! !

2009

This blog already accompany me for one year. my sweet 18 .....

i will try my best to update "you" often ya !

Be HaPpy???

Depression ???

What is depression? i heard this hundred time in psychology class...

our lecturer seem like handle loads of people that undergo depression, i have never takes it seriously before ...

Untill recently....

Getting more and more news related about the stars commit suicide no matter Korea, taiwan, Europe...

and

the died of eddy which was really freaking me out , beacuse he was also suicide

and

i found somebody jump down from tenth floor inside Time square while i having window shopping...

they give up their life unconsciously, that isn't their mean to do so. It's a mental disorder, it's thought to be caused by an imbalance of brain chemical and other factors.

YOU may wonder why it had to happen to THEM. The fact is that anyone can get depression

The way to cope this is try to think positively, it's important to have high self-esteen. And....i think the most important is to Express ,so having a trusted friend is necessary, a friend that we can rely on...to talk to...to share...

Some peoples may have really no friends, but they may be can share with their spouse....

if u have no spouse no friend, the family is existed for u ANYtime ^^

Don't ever swalloon all the troubles into yours deepest heart, it will be painful untill the day you unable to abided...

Don't even try to kill yourself.....PLS!

Merry Christmas ...!

25/12/2008

MeRRy Christmas

Went back from Klang today....

Yo...Klang again, no any new place to go meh??? No choice lo, Malaysia is a very *boring* and *dump* country BESIDE the tropicana Beach. i'm lovin it.

i will go enjoy the sunshine and sea every year when i grew up, the meaning of grew up here meant= i can afford not to depent on my parents. ^^

What a waste , i got a fair complexions but i love Beach.....gosh, cant imagine all the turtle swimming around me (>.<)"

Deeply fall in love with 牛皮shoes...recently. So SUDDEN.

May be i found my style finally, but there have not much shop selling woman 牛皮鞋. On the other hand, i can get man 牛皮鞋 everywhere. And......this kind of shoes not cheap! it's surely above hundred.Yesterday I found it so hard from a shop (the only shop) ....T.T i cant leave my eyes on it.

i think what i like is a lil bit different with the others while the youth now prefer the shinny and colouful shoes. HAHA!

i have NO FATE with the shoes recently !!!

it's so hard to make me take a fancy to those shoes that are hot selling on the market now, UNTILL today i found a shoes which i think that is so nice and i wanna buy it.....it was already out of stock

-.-" sienzzzz la

That mean i just can continuously wearing my canvas shoes untill the appeares of my ideal shoes ...i don't wanna !

this is what we called as Ballet??

"she" might be challenging me. LOL

My christmas present from mummy....

Such a big Burger for me...Yummy~


Daddy spent loads as usual TODAY. This is the disadvantages of simply take holiday as your's wish!
No matter , deepavali, haji, puasa, hari raya adilfritri, New year, christmas.My daddy will OFF automatically....SO busybody. No working day will spend more. We spent rm200 for our lunch, because the big fish cost rm70++ ,and the others just normal dishes without seafood. OMG~
it was a NORMAL phenomena in our NO matter lunch or dinner time, because my daddy is make sense on Eat ; but i rather to use that money to do others thing >.<"

Lastly......... wish u all MERRY CHRISTMAS!


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24/12/08
Christmas EVE

My heart flew away to Dar's place in the early morning, i cant wait to meet him in the afternoon.

Finally has a Target to do on that day........

i planned to go sg.wang on 4pm. MAMA suddenly changed T.T she wan fetch me on 3pm. My plan also changed, mama fetch me to sg.wang instead of taking bus ! gosh~

i'm so touched....Mummy always simply find reason to fetch me to the place i wanna. muack*

i'm so panic on the other hand....

because i have not ready yet. In a RUSH, one of my len LOST !!!

Of course i will lost it, because one hand holding mascara and eyeliner and deciding which one to be eliminated, because i have really no time. Another hand holding len...............

....i have no idea...

so i wearing just one len to GO OUT.

i'm insane.

but luckily the len which i lost is the left one, the eye which is i consider as Blind so never MINd~

What a special DAY ~

Two different eyes.

I reached sg.wang too early so i have Damn many hours to shop....

T.T Damn borig to walk alone...

althought shopping is one of my hobby, but NO MONEY meanS NOTHING!

Therefore, I got the permission to go low yat earlier ^^.Planned to celebrate countdown wit my dar so i have to wait dar untill he finished working. (T.T)

i thought i will be passing the hours like age in dar shop...BUT, haha dar bring me buy thing which is consider as my christmas present "gua". ^^

thanks loads lu....

then, i received jiawen called=she was coming , NOPE, is "they" were coming all way long from serdang. hehe...hoho...wahaha...

Then......

i saw Sandy. Finally saw her.

she bring me to visit her work place which is just located just upstair dar 's working place.

She getting thin.....thinner and thnner....

but she is happier. ^^

She said i'm shorter.............Gosh~

i think what i suggested last time was right. ^^

Throughout the difficuities she met at outside, she might become stronger and more mature, brave as well.

I got a feeling.........wondering why the feeling so strong.

i wish her bf and her can marry in the future. Although the time they be together are not long as anyone.BUT, without doubt, they sacrifice a lot toward each other. And they did passed throught the difficuities together. ^^

hmmmm........

i think i will be visit sandy again once i goin to visit my DAR.

we have no place to go T.T
I think the best , is to having a party at home with several friends.......
that will be great and warmth. Because every restaurants are fully packed by peoples.




Something happenned....
i felt itch on my left eye, so i rub it.....
then.....
something which was dissapeared, in a SUDDEN i found it back from my EYE.
Oh My Len...! damn you....It was just like a magic Show@.@
seriously.....the lens was quite scary !

Pink man???

i have no idea......

lastly, we went to connaught night market to have our dinner

interesting huh??? Goin here and there just like nobody businesss.

Thanks Dar......!

ribuan-ribuan terima kasih KEpada Mu.

***WHAT a fastantic day with fastantic people and fastantic happening. ***

On sales

EveryWhere ON SALES ! ! !

I wan go shopping instantly >.<"

this make me wanna scream again....

Haiz...

When only i can go shop shop shop shop shop?????

I turned insane soon....

I want a brand new hair-style also !!!

this gonna make me scream again...

Arhhh~

Where is my money???

come back to me, pls.........!

i'm a vivid psycho!

party tomoro will be cancel???

Oh no, i gonna start planning now. . . . .

Thanks everyone ....

grandma cat's *RoBert zai*

grandma miss robert zai so much since she stay in hospital. So i capture some pictures to show her.

and Dinga Cat...to visit grandma.

Thanks for u guys comment, u all are so caring!

i give my grandma a call yesterday night, *very paiseh le* because i promised to call her but i almost forgotten. I called her eventually before she fall asleep....she "sound" she was fine. In fact, she was really fine with her spirit just the whole body cant stand for the itch.

Within the 2 weeks in the hospital , grandma been shiftting here and there several time, from personal wad to public wad, then shift back to personal wad , and now she has been shift back to public wad

(>.<)"

very troublesome.

The personal wad is staying a room alone and air-conditional existed. This is the different. I think grandma prefer public wad more because there got many "neighbour" can chat to....

She said she keep looking the patients leaving , and a group of new patients coming in again. haiz...this had proven , she stay there quite a period.

Don't worry lo, grandma will be coming out soon. We're sure can celebrate chinese new year together Geh!!!

Through yesterday conversation, i get know grandma will be trying another new medicine today and this is the LAST one. Really hope grandma will no allergic to this medicine again, otherwise the itch will be more serious. On the contrary, if her body can accept this medicine then she can GO HOMe la ^^ .

May GOD bless you, grandma.

(T.T)

heart-broken to see her being like this.

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Christmas coming lu~~~

I'm so boring staying at home le, suddenly miss our school so much. May be I'M just missing my friends....COME COME COME and Date me le.

Worry....

my grandma in serdang hopital now !!!

she is terrible sick T.T

actually she was staying there more than 2 weeks already, but it seem like the skin problem getting worse after eating the medicines given. I hate Those doctor. T.T

Arrrh~

help my grandma.

she just ate the medicines that given by the goverment hospital which is "free" then her skin problem started and getting worse now. The skin is dropping down when she scrash her skin ....the whole body is reddish like been hurt by the hot water.

T.T

Allergic?? why cant they solve it faster instead to let my lovely grandma suffer.

Christmas Gift

What kind of Present i hope to received??

Nikom DSLR D60

otherwise???

olympus suck!

Lv big volume

can put all my books inside ^^

Watch

wondering which branded???

or anyone can tell me which is suit my style?

a New hair style

present's is so boring and annoying

ArrrH ~ ~ ~ ~

i'm just such a girl that admire branded .BitCh

A LEOPARD CAN'T CHANGE ITS SPORT

i think this behaviour will be last untill i'm the age of 60??

actually, all of that just my desires....

not a must i must get it. Or those can consider as a Target, a Goal that encourage me to work harder in order to get what I WANT

but, if i failed to do so??? if i becoming more and more dependent to my husband after i married???

because what i am now is what i not wanna to be...understand?

+++i'm definate a vivid dependent girl now.+++

This is due to i adopted in a good family that i can easily get everything from them

i had never work hard for the car...laptop...hanphone...clothes...higher education in private university...

i even rely on my Dar after i stepped in "love"

movie, breakfast,lunch,dinner, hanphone, transport, watch, bag, legchain........

but sometime he also couldn't satisfied what i want just like what i asked for recently so i have to be understanding. Therefore i did help him when he was in difficulties......I think this is one of my good??

When comes to my studies, i rely on friends......to help me (>.<)"

gosh~ *fainted* I'm just a fifth wheel ! ! !

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okay, The hopes In the Christmas=New Year 2009

is.........

i can get a watch and a school bag la...i don't have a watch really and the bag i'm using now was broken and i used it for so long time already since my secondary school. Many friends asked me to throw the bag because it really looked so Dirty. haha.

Oh ya, the top wish is i can pass all the subjects taken in sem 1 !!! I don't wanna RETAKE, it is so costly...I will get the result after Christmas so i sincerely hope my wish will be come true.

Ya, it was foolish to hope without action right???

But i did put my effort in my studies since the first lessons untill the last.So if i failed, it's also very unfair to me

and if i'm really failed....That can proven, i'm really a useless peRson.

haha....

Lastly, all my friends will be happier AND healtier .

Jiawen can get a ideal boyfriend. ^^

AS well as my family member.....healthy is the first !!! Money Second okay? Then, more income la of course...who do not like money??? huh?? huh???

Hope grandma can come out from the sad memory , be cheerful and knoe more friends instead to be slone in the house keep thinking of grandpa....

i love you.

Hope Dar can "naik pangkat" la, then he may get no reason not to buy me Bag jor (>.<)

and I'm sure dar sure CAN de with his ability and he is qualified to get it.

What is your's ,that is yours.

DAR must be healthy also ! Stop playing basketball after just finished eating.Last but not least, hope he can get more Off day ....hehe

I can still remember the time we just get to know each other through webcam....He changed a lot ! Thanks GOD give me such a big present , i treasure it so much !

The last time me, So Fit !!!

so, i hope i can lose my weight to 45kg.

k.....hehe. abit shy to say that. bye.

It's ended

Final Exam Finished !

no more suffer, tension and stress for TEMPORARY !

hooray~~~

not goin to think the problem of whether i need to take sub-paper or retake the sub ! i'm enough for it.The exam made me older and insane just within the exam week.

mentally and pysically disorter !

I must do many many mask from now on to recover the ruined of my facial condition. Therefore , i can attend any of the coming party that will be fully fill in December-January.

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i get know one of my secondary friend has passed away , which made me incrediblely shock till the max.

Eddy Wong ....hmmm....

a handsome, nice body shape but indelicacy as well as NO-Class!

i intensely hate him.Nobody would know what he did on me before ....

on the contrary,

this guy had leave loads of unforgetton memories in my life. He ruined the friendship between veron and me ,he spoiled my fame and he did molest me.

He was a very flirt guy,he always flirting around in the school and with his posses ability, term and condition, he really enable to made many girls fall in love with him, excluding me PLS.

He can couple up with a girl then broke up, then couple up with another girl again then broke up.....a non-stop "love chain" happened, and the main point was all the girls are good friend of each.Wondering why the girls begin so unconscious about the characteristic of this guy !!! Difficuit to comprehend that those girl who was goin to couple up with him, never ever thought that he was just a playboy after her friends ended up the relationship with him?? GIRLS be clear-minded la~

ME???

i was really very clear as well as understand what kind of "animal" he was . So, i'm can gurantee that i had never ever fall in love with him.However, he told me how much he love me, beg me to be together with him....

But, nobody believe me instead of my classmate. Untill he start not to respect me and simply touch me in the public-classroom.*School was a place full of Rumours !* News always spreaded with another of explaination . So i been humiliate by the peoples. I saw his true character that other's couldnt see. But, how other's value me ? THey think i'm the one be "cheap", grapped friend's boyfriend .....

The Silly and childish people just cannot classified which is the true and fake.

Then, they come up with a gang and surrounding me to scold me and someone tend to give me a slap. HAHA~ Their action really make me laugh when i recalling back.

But, i still remember i did cried for that happened because i felt innocent but helpless. I cried from school untill the evening.......haha. I think i may be too hurt and heart-broken toward my best friend .

actually, everytime i would feel that was really funny when i recalled all the past, On the other hand, i feel sad..Sad about why my Best friend not choose to belive me instead of her "flirt lover" + rubbish friend !

Really sorry...i'm not mean to related all the past which was really happened long long long time ago. And now everthing was fine.

but, this was really one of the unforgetten memories that mark in my life which caused fed up with friend .

But now.....He died ! i should pray for him.....

Forgive him......

What was happened just let it go.....

atleast, i'm happy now because i got EVERYTHING!

friends, complete family , and DAR which is almost perfect !

i love my life ....

MISSION 4,5

MISSION 4 = Positive Psychology

&

MISSION 5= Probobility and Satistic

DONE !